Arms wide open
God's light embracing the earth
I allow sunshine into my heart
Enters my chest
It travels down my feet
through my fingers
and through my head.
Oh, Glorious Morning!
My eyes resting on the water
The birds are singing happy tunes
The wind whispers in the trees.
Oh, Glorious Morning!
I am Confident
I am Artistic
I am Transforming
I am Achieving
I am Love
I am Loved.
Oh, Glorious Morning!
Arms wide open.
Meggan Harper is the wonderful photographer who did my photo's for this website.
Strange how God puts people in your life when the timing is right!
I had thought about getting photos taken for a long time. I didn't feel like it though because I needed to get in shape and feel better first (anther blog will come about that process). I don't have a car yet and so it's difficult for me to get around. After a long while without a web-site, I finally managed to get the domain name I wanted, ladyloverebel.com, and started setting up this page.
Now I really needed pictures to get moving with my web site. My friend Yani, took me home one Friday and I said to her; "I really need some photos taken. And i've been thinking about Meggan Harper." Whereas she replies; "I'm going there on Monday at 11 am to get my Yoga Picture taken. Maybe you can talk to her and come too?" And so I did. I contacted Meggan and she was very pleased to do that, even on such short notice.
I was very nervous, and Meggan said "everybody's nervous when they get here."
She was very easy to work with, and she took charge of the situation, which made me feel more at ease.
So this a shout out to Meggan Harper, and I highly recommend her as a photographer to capture the special moments in your life.
When I came to the USA i had a lot of baggage on my shoulders. Baggage that I'd been carrying from my early childhood. A lot of my memories I had suppressed, and I found that I needed to address them in order to overcome them. I put my story into a book; "Better Believe- A Story Of Hope".
It feels good for me to be able to refer to this book, instead of re-living it all the time through telling.
While I've been here in Florida, The Palm Coast Observer did an interview with me in relation to my book.
If you are interested you can read about it here;
Back in the day when I was journeying through the lower range of society, I noticed one thing very clearly; These people justified their pure rotten behavior towards one another with the environment they were in... They stabbed each other's backs and they stole, cheated, lied, never kept their word and so forth. And they told me it was ok because everybody was doing that.
And so I made it my mission to prove them wrong. I kept my word, I gave support, i pay back what I loaned and I tried to uplift and bring some hope into the scene. I figured that if I did that, I had already proved them wrong. I'd proved that no matter what circumstances you are in you can still walk with integrity and basic human caring.
And so I needed to find a name for myself. I sat with my guitar, making songs and singing songs in all kinds of different environments. One day it came to me; LoveRebel!! That's it!! A love rebel, on a mission for the greater good!
And so it was, i roamed around the streets of Oslo as LoveRebel with my mohawk and my boyish attitude.
Even if being boyish and wearing my hair like that, probably saved me from some uncomfortable situations I couldn't quite buy fully into that image. In my heart I am way to soft and gentle.
That's when Lady came into my mind and I found that to be a perfect description of who I wanted to be. Yes, a rebel in the name of love- but in a lady-like way!
So there you have it, the very origin of the name LadyLoveRebel.
You can do everything just for one day.....
I used to stress myself out to the point where I could no longer carry through with my plans or ideas. In my head I was thinking about everything I needed to do....all at once.....and some things I wasn't quite ready for. I was living in the future. And with that came a great deal of anxiety. I was questioning everything; How can I do that? I want to do this...but I should do that! I can't do.......I should do...... Back and forth, back and forth.
No wonder I got stressed out!
I learned a valuable lesson;
There is nothing I SHOULD do!!!!!!!! I can do whatever I want to, IF I WANT to!!! (as long as I am woman enough to carry the consequences)
Other times I was lingering in my past....Why did this happen? Why me? Poor me...... Until I found myself feeling deeply depressed. I was going down memory lane, which for me, was not a very pleasant place to be. And there was very little I could do to change my past. All I could do was to learn to deal with the consequences. Why am I reacting this way? How can I better myself in this or that? And practice new skills.........over and over and over.......again....until I changed my patterns to something that soothed my dreams better, and supported my journey.
What I've found is that no matter what I do, I can do it for one day!
Just for today I'll...................put in whatever your goal is.
Then the next day...
......just for today I'll....................
Just For Today I'm gonna be proud of where I am in my life! Just for today I'm gonna enjoy my own company! Just for today I'm gonna love myself as I love my family and friends! Just for today I'm gonna feel confident and have faith that my life journey will take me to places I could never dreamed of! Just for today I'm gonna breathe and sense and enjoy my quiet mind!
Just For Today.....
I'm Gonna Breathe.....
....and BE here today-
In the moment!
That's all I have