Back in the day when I was journeying through the lower range of society, I noticed one thing very clearly; These people justified their pure rotten behavior towards one another with the environment they were in... They stabbed each other's backs and they stole, cheated, lied, never kept their word and so forth. And they told me it was ok because everybody was doing that.
And so I made it my mission to prove them wrong. I kept my word, I gave support, i pay back what I loaned and I tried to uplift and bring some hope into the scene. I figured that if I did that, I had already proved them wrong. I'd proved that no matter what circumstances you are in you can still walk with integrity and basic human caring.
And so I needed to find a name for myself. I sat with my guitar, making songs and singing songs in all kinds of different environments. One day it came to me; LoveRebel!! That's it!! A love rebel, on a mission for the greater good!
And so it was, i roamed around the streets of Oslo as LoveRebel with my mohawk and my boyish attitude.
Even if being boyish and wearing my hair like that, probably saved me from some uncomfortable situations I couldn't quite buy fully into that image. In my heart I am way to soft and gentle.
That's when Lady came into my mind and I found that to be a perfect description of who I wanted to be. Yes, a rebel in the name of love- but in a lady-like way!
So there you have it, the very origin of the name LadyLoveRebel.
You can do everything just for one day.....
I used to stress myself out to the point where I could no longer carry through with my plans or ideas. In my head I was thinking about everything I needed to do....all at once.....and some things I wasn't quite ready for. I was living in the future. And with that came a great deal of anxiety. I was questioning everything; How can I do that? I want to do this...but I should do that! I can't do.......I should do...... Back and forth, back and forth.
No wonder I got stressed out!
I learned a valuable lesson;
There is nothing I SHOULD do!!!!!!!! I can do whatever I want to, IF I WANT to!!! (as long as I am woman enough to carry the consequences)
Other times I was lingering in my past....Why did this happen? Why me? Poor me...... Until I found myself feeling deeply depressed. I was going down memory lane, which for me, was not a very pleasant place to be. And there was very little I could do to change my past. All I could do was to learn to deal with the consequences. Why am I reacting this way? How can I better myself in this or that? And practice new skills.........over and over and over.......again....until I changed my patterns to something that soothed my dreams better, and supported my journey.
What I've found is that no matter what I do, I can do it for one day!
Just for today I'll...................put in whatever your goal is.
Then the next day...
......just for today I'll....................
Just For Today I'm gonna be proud of where I am in my life! Just for today I'm gonna enjoy my own company! Just for today I'm gonna love myself as I love my family and friends! Just for today I'm gonna feel confident and have faith that my life journey will take me to places I could never dreamed of! Just for today I'm gonna breathe and sense and enjoy my quiet mind!
Just For Today.....
I'm Gonna Breathe.....
....and BE here today-
In the moment!
That's all I have